I've been working on getting an M.A. from California State University at Dominguez Hills. Although to be honest they have a swacky looking logo. Anyway, I was able to take a full load and still keep going strong at work when I first started due to my excitement, but that ended quickly as the grind just wore me down. I've been going for a year and half with another year to go.
Since I had been working extended hours on a major release I was neglecting my school work. But now that it's done I've shifted focus back to school. I arranged to take five vacation days to catch up on my final assignments for this semester.
This particular class, 579 - The Arab World, has obvious relevance in our current state of affairs. The problem is that my objectivity and interest has waned lately.
The final two assignments should be fairly straightforward. They are typical research papers with 1500 word limits:
1. What pattern if any does Arab history (or some particular geographic area or cultural aspect) exhibit from the Hijra to the end of World War II? What forces might explain such a pattern - or the lack of one?
2. What went wrong? Why are some Arab Muslims so militant and angry?
In a disinterested state of mind a good historian can approach a subject from all angles and apply a disciplined methodology to the research. At least that is the goal. But I would be lying if I were to say I was in an objective mood. Usually when I'm in this state of mind I look forward to the opportunity to spend time on a topic, gain perspective and arrive at an informed frame of reference where historical events can be discussed.
But as I've seen today's pictures of dead civilians hanging from a bridge, bodies being dragged in the street and mutilation of their corpses all accompanied by happy, encouraging crowds, I'm failing at any level of emotional detachment. I really want to be the voice of reason that can parse the complexities of current affairs and understand the impact beyond the surface reports.
However, when the best-of-breed in human stupidity comes into play, my first reaction is more visceral than rational. I want to see these cheering chuckleheads lit up with the red laser dots of impending doom, watch snipers drop a couple dozen of the worst offenders and see the fucking smiles wiped from their faces. I think of a saying my buddy told me about a long time ago "All problems can be solved with violence, if it doesn't solve it, you aren't using enough violence" (not exact, but you get the idea).
Yes, yes, I know that these attitudes contribute nothing to the overall welfare for either the Iraqi's or the U.S. I also realize that violence brings more violence and this would bring us down to "their level" but like I said, there is nothing rational about it.
Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to try and read about how we did action X [insert fundamentalist based rationalization here - troops in Saudi Arabia, Fall of Ottoman Empire, redrawing of geographic boundries, etc] and are paying for it in terms of animosity and violence towards the Western world...bleh [end rant].